I always hid it with a smile.So that you would praise me."You are my everything"I waited for the day you would say that to me.
It felt like I was the only different oneWell then, today I'll pretend to be kind again
"I wanted to be loved" As if clinging onto today, I repeat "I want to live" "I want to die" over and over Moving forward uncertainly,I hide my ugly face by looking confident."I can't change" I know I'll be all alone today.Because I don't trust anybody, anythingI only have one goal.I just want to be told, "You are my everything."
1番も良いけど2番はもっと好き
I patched myself up so that I wouldn't be hated, I made friends with a smile, I was patching up for the wrong person, but I was so happy, from the bottom of my heart.And little by little, I started to feel that I was dirty and dark I became unable to speak properly.Everyone drifted away from me.
嫌われないように 繕った
I was the only different oneI just found myself feeling jealous
"Just die" I hate it all I felt like a monster, unlike everyone around meTo be honest, it's hurting me bad but isn't asking for help just a burden?
If only I could scream out that it hurts I would be able to live with a weight off my mind.But even if I do that, everyone's gonna ignore.They only care about themselves.
I wanted to be the same, too; I wanted to be born into a loving family We'd laugh together, say "It's great to be alive"Let this unchanging day end.Let this day where I can't change end.
僕だって同じように 愛のある家に生まれて
"I wanted to be loved." I can't smile like that But I became an adult without being able to do anything.I uncertainly begin to notice I start being unable to put on a confident faceI remain unchanging again today, and it hurts so much I can't trust anybody, anything I end up saying,
"At least you're loved!"
「(親に)愛されてるくせに」
「愛されてるくせに」「ずるいよ」って歌詞聞くたび、自分は家庭に問題があるわけじゃないのになぜか泣きそうになる。
愛されたかっただけなんです
I just wanted to be loved.By my mom and dadEven if they hit or kicked meI just wanted to be loved.
